I wrote the essay as part of my recovery process from the trauma of brain surgery. The author in 2017 before he had brain surgery. With this in the forefront of my mind, I decided not to have another brain surgery to have titanium plates fill the holes in my skull. The author in the hospital after his brain surgery. Felice received his Ph.D. from New York University and served as a trustee on the board of the Carnegie Council for Ethics in International Relations.